I use to feel guilty and disgusted in myself, about what I did and how acted, but someone told me that I am not defined by my past, it was lessons I had to learn. To change I may have lost something good, just to gain something better.

One thing I can I take with me is that you made me feel beautiful, for that time someone really saw me, I felt beautiful everyday, wanted, I was loved.

I have worked alot to better myself the last couple of months, things are going well. It’s not hard anymore and I dont think about you so much, its just strange, its like you might just have been something I dreamed about some nights, it’s like you never existed, but this is what I wanted, I wanted to forget, I wanted to move on and feel nothing. My mind use to wonder alot, but then I replace every thought that would random pop in my head with some other thought that I had prepaid. Now I see you now and again, my heart skips beats, but then I imidiatly think of the last thing you said…. move on. And that has set me free.

I thank you for making me feel beautiful and wanted. I also know and can’t wait for what is ahead and the magic every step forward will reveal.